Monday, September 12, 2011
A Different Take on Yes and No
I've been reflecting on this and have come to the decision that, in order to say YES to the parts of my life I most want to embrace, it's time to say NO to some other parts.
I have no energy, no joy in my play sessions with Cricket. All my "yes" has been used up and all I'm left with is "no."
I started saying "no" when I gave Bleu back. It was a hard decision but the right one. Bleu is doing so well back in her old home. It's hard to read the Facebook updates and not feel like a failure but I know I did the right thing for me and ultimately the right thing for Bleu.
I need to say "no" some more.
I need to say "no" to some of the things that waste my time. Like spending way too much time on Facebook or other meaningless games on my laptop.
I need to say "no" to some things that do not constitute good use of my time. I may decide to let go of trimming Cricket's feet. It's not that I cannot do it but rather I don't want to have the pressure of maintaining her feet.
I need to say "no" so I can free myself to say "yes."
I want to feel more joy and connection in my play time with Cricket. I want to get out from under the pressure of finishing my L3 and I want to forget about L4.
I want to feel more peace and serenity in my house.
I want to use my time to get things done rather than waste my time and scramble at the last minute.
So forgive me as I put on my Minister of No hat. Forgive me if I'm just not as available or flexible as I once was. Forgive me if I don't please you as I've often done in the past. Forgive me as I learn to say "no." But if you are patient and forgiving, I promise that when I can once again become the Ambassador of Yes, I will be a more true and authentic person. I will bring more light and joy and our interactions will be richer because of it.