I've learned not to say "it cannot get any worse." It can. And it usually does.
I know, if I were to count my blessings they would vastly out-number my current trials. But I need a brief moment of self-pity. Just to get it out of my system so I can move on. I finally had a mini-meltdown at Pilates yesterday and that has helped a lot. It just needs to be about me for just a little while.
I'm feeling better today. Except I cannot find my KK Ultra Loose Ring snaffle. I cleaned it last year and "put it where I was sure to find it again." Of course the very notion is a virtual guarantee that I will never find that item again. Until I'm looking for something completely unrelated, months later, and discover the initial item, exclaiming "that's where that was!" Ugh!
I digress . . . I just feel like I have too many things pulling on my limited resources. And I need to decide what I want most. I am taking the opportunity to go look at another horse when I return from camp. If I decide this is something I want to do, what needs to give in order to afford the care for another horse?
I am also wrestling with my horsemanship journey. I just don't know how deeply I want to continue with Parelli right now. I'll never give up what I've learned but I think, maybe, it's time for something else. I just don't know. Maybe I don't need to think about it right now.