What do you do when you feel like giving up?
What do you do when it just feels like too much?
What do you do when it's just not fun anymore?
What do you do when you come to that place where you say, "I just cannot do this any longer"?
Because I'm there and I don't know what to do.
I am so overwhelmed by the responsibility of Cricket that I feel paralyzed.
It struck me hard the other day how tired I am. I'm tired of trying to figure out what is going on with her. I'm tired of researching answers for her headshaking. I'm tired of hitting the same wall over and over and over. I'm tired.
Emotionally she is draining me. I know her headshaking is not behavioral and I know she's trying as hard as she can. But sometimes that's not enough. Financially she's bleeding me dry. The cost of boarding coupled with everything I'm trying to alleviate her headshaking is taking all my available resources.
I need help and there is no one here to help me.
I have camp in a few weeks. Maybe there will be some answers there. I don't know. I'm a little tired of waiting to see if something is around the corner.